I am in a very convenient situation. I work where I live. My rent is free. I get a small salary on top of it. Isaiah is with me before and after school and Josiah never, ever leaves my side. I have been very blessed.
Though, I often wonder what it is like to work-work. How would my life be different? How would the boys get by without me? I often think about the trade-off. If I work now I will be working to merely pay for gas and day care. If I stay at home-home I will be stuck in a mommy-rut. A sweatpants-wearing, comb-misplacing, makeup-forgetting, mommy-rut. I hate the mommy rut.
And what if something happens to my husband? He occasionally comes home with stories about men being crushed by steel. Men being run down by steel. He's been stuck on train tracks. He hauls in the rain, in the snow, in the hail. He is often home later than the sun. He is out more than in. He is not, ever, in the safest environment. If something happened to him, I'd be left to grieve alone with the children. I'd be left to pick up the children and get on with our lives...alone. How would I provide for them? How would I feed them, clothe them, be both mom and dad to them?
I must work. I must be good at something. The boys can not be my only profession. They need me to prepare. They need me to be there in the event that I need to be there.
I know there are others who feel that pain. There are others who feel that they need to career it up and there are more who feel they need to mom it up. Tell me what to do. The plan is to get my property manager's license, my brokerage license, WA State CCB license. Thank goodness I already have my driver's license. I can check that off. I have a plan. Do you? I am eager to hear it.
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you are a lucky, lucky mom! i wish for that. i worked when kaden was a baby and LOVED my work. but being a family that survived meant that my job couldnt. my hubby is a good dad....but not a good housewife and it was just too much. so we decided that while my kids were at home, so was i, and when they went to school, so would i - to finish what i started so that i could support and provide. and then 2009 came - bryce was out of work for 9 months when we moved up here and we had a surprise baby on top of it. i felt helpless to not have something to fall back on (and that did not mesh with my type A personality). so i would take your situation any day. i love being a stay at home mom and wouldnt trade it for the world - but i know i will have the career i chose....someday. good luck and stay progressing with yours. you can do both!
ReplyDeleteWhat you’re doing is great! You have a plan for you and your family’s future. I am proud of you for having a PLAN. You will be ready for your career when the kids get a little older. So now you have a PLAN A, do you have a PLAN B?
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